Today, if Friday June 26. My week has been a roller coaster ride to say the least. The economy finally caught up with my family and my husband lost his job. We are hoping it is only a temporary situation however as we all know the economy is hurting so badly it really is unclear how long it will be before he gets to go back to work or if he will. Also looking for a job is very difficult right now more and more competition every day. We find ourselves in a dilema...do we use precious gas and drive looking for a job or do we save it and what little we have in cash for any emergency situations that may come up? I have been working more hours on both jobs or as many as they will let me work along with trying to find any odd and end jobs in my neighborhood for the extra cash. School is creeping up on me and I will be needing to buy clothes and shoes for my oldest.....the more I think about it the more I start stressing...
The house payment will be due in a few days and it will take every last penny we have to make it and then with the thought of not having another payday behind it from hubby just makes me want to cry. I have been begging the manager at the local store I work at for more hours but it is very hard for him also unless I can talk other people out of there hours I have all the hours his budget will let me have. I have been scouring my home for items that I may be able to sell on ebay or craigslist for extra money...clothing and shoes etc: I have been bargain shopping and coupon cutting like crazy doing all kinds of testing of products and samples and surveys to make extra money I just feel I have exhausted all means. I am not saying I would do any such thing but at the same time I can understand how some people ahve decided there own fate and ended their lives it can be very overwhelming and takes a toll on the mind. I keep clinging to love and faith to pull me through I know my prayers will be answered and as long as I have faith and love the rest don't really matter.

Thoughts wanted.....

Just some history about myself. I am a 34 yr old mother of two wonder children. Of course we all wish we could go back in time and change things and I would not be a very honest person if I said the thought had not crossed my mind but I would not be the person I am today if it were not for those hard lessons in life. We often forget who we truly are, what true happiness is and how to truly love until we loose it all. Sure, it's painful and yes I thought it was so very important but during it all I have managed to maintain my sanity and still LOVE who I am and what I have. Who I am is fun, honest, sincere, and love with the heart. What I thought was important was all the material things I just new would make me somebody and finally feel important. What I have a loving family, loving husband, beautiful kids and wonderful friends who never turn me away.
I have had several career changes in the past few years all due to me trying to achieve what I thought was a higher sense of self. What I have found is the best job I could ever have is being a mommy. Of course I work also, I work out of my home, and have a pretty flexible schedule that allows me to work and spend time with the kids. I work doing many things, customer serivce, admin assistant and transcription and typing services. It is not great pay but the benefits are wonderful.
Ok, so now that I have rambled and went from one subject to another...... please any thoughts on this subject or questions? Anyone else have the same feelings or struggles? I want open honest opinions

Frustrating Day!!!

I just can't seem to understand how in a society today we still have people so narrow minded and self centered that they only think of themselves. Has noone learned anything from all the trouble in the world today?